We can talk about it later, and if you wanna be mad at me about it, that's fine. Probably not time for it now, before Ouma takes off.
That's kinda what I was trying to do, y'know? I asked him if he wanted to live here and he acted like he thought I was trying to trick him or something, so I started talking about all the reasons I liked him and wanted him around, and then... well, then all this happened.
Ah, that's all very good, and I'm glad. But it was also... a bit badly timed. He's going to have a lot deal with at once. And he doesn't even know we're together yet. If he feels like you were hiding something from him, he might... doubt you, even more.
...I'm not mad at you, though. I'm just worried about Ouma-kun. ...And maybe a bit jealous. That you could act on your feelings so quickly, I mean. I don't mind if you kiss him, in general.
Yeah, I get that. I dunno if there was a good way to bring that all up, though, y'know? Like, if I told him you and me are together and didn't mention that either you or I like him, don't you think he'd just fuck off somewhere?
I imagine not. And I'm not sure if telling him you talked to me, or that I want to talk to him, would make him more or less likely to actually do it...
Well, yeah, obviously! But that's not the only reason I messed up here, and I want you to know I know that. You deserve the best boyfriend I can manage to be, y'know? I gotta keep working hard to be that boyfriend, Shuichi!
I feel really lucky that you asked me to be your boyfriend, y'know? Ouma's lucky too. I know you'll get it to work out... you're just amazing like that!
I'm really not that amazing. And I definitely don't know that it'll work out. This isn't like solving a crime... and even if it was, I'm not perfect. But I'll try my best.
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[ He still doesn't sound entirely happy with that explanation. But he moves on. ]
...I don't know. Maybe. He's got to be... confused, and worried. I don't know what would reassure him, though.
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That's kinda what I was trying to do, y'know? I asked him if he wanted to live here and he acted like he thought I was trying to trick him or something, so I started talking about all the reasons I liked him and wanted him around, and then... well, then all this happened.
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[ a soft laugh comes through ]
Ah, that's all very good, and I'm glad. But it was also... a bit badly timed. He's going to have a lot deal with at once. And he doesn't even know we're together yet. If he feels like you were hiding something from him, he might... doubt you, even more.
...I'm not mad at you, though. I'm just worried about Ouma-kun. ...And maybe a bit jealous. That you could act on your feelings so quickly, I mean. I don't mind if you kiss him, in general.
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[ sigh ]
I suppose you can just make sure he comes to talk to me.
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Hey, I do wanna talk to you about all this later, for real.
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And yeah... of course.
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Hey... call me again when you're done talking? Or come over--if you're not, uh, busy I guess? Haha...
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Um, I'll just hope for it to go even close to that well. And yeah, I'll call you after.